I'm different?

[sbs2012]

Most or should I say all of my life I've been different from my peers...
I could never really understand what life was about...I lived in my own "world" not in "touch" with this physical world at all...
Been in therapy since I was 19 yrs. old and not one Psych could tell me what was "wrong" with me...got "labeled" with a bunch of titles...
It wasn't until I was around an Aspie who explained to me what an "Aspie" was...it made sense to me since I had all the "characteristics" of an Aspie...still it didn't change the fact that I felt "cheated" out of life...Knowing the truth now, is tough for me...I hate being different...why couldn't I have what others take for granted?...I wanted stuff I still don't understand...a relationship that leads to marriage, children, companionship...etc.
If God is this loving God, why was I cheated out of a "normal" life?...

[joker]

When talking about normal we have to ask the question what is normal? IF we where all the same life would be boring. God works in many ways he has a plan for you. Just pray about it an the answers will be given to you in due time.

[Sabertooth]

sbs2012,
I used to feel the same way as you. A couple things can help:

• Hang out with Christians (in meatspace) whenever possible (through that God will work on your character and you will learn, by trial & error, how to better relate to people; kind of like a rock tumbler)
  
• Don't seek out a mate (though you can still ask God for one). Instead, make friends with whoever you can. Same sex. Opposite sex, who may already have a girlfriend. Some people won't be your friend, but that's okay. From your pool of available male friends, God may one day make two of you click, but by not forcing the issue, you will not feel like you have to keep up appearances and you can be more relaxed.
  
• Even if most normals don't get you, you may hit it off with another Aspie who may feel as rejected as you do. Or an NT who grew up with an Aspie and likes those qualities.
  
• Also in meatspace, if everything else is working out, favorable pheromones can further facilitate getting close to someone. They are independent of someone's appearance and, for me, are often amplified with my Aspie oversensory issues. They are great/exciting when you are both single and otherwise available, but kind of embarrassing when that is not the case. You can't get them from photos or dating videos; you can only detect them in person.